HOW I HAVE BEEN POISONED AND PUT TO TO DEATH
Krishna Balarama Swami’s witness account, how he was to be poisoned by Bhakti Charu
and put to death by Hansadutta fanatics Chakravarti das and his wife (Dinasarana dd)
Original account quoted from:
Krishna Balarama Swami (ACBSP):
People sometimes ask us to write something about our own personal life, so we have decided to include some of this information in this ‘My Mission‘….
When we were in our Guru’s movement, many of our godbrothers became very close friends with us, but when they found that some other godbrothers created problems for us, they immediately turned against us. For example, His Holiness Mahanidhi Swami, His Holiness Jayadvaita Swami, and many others became very bitter with us. Before turmoil began for us, they were very sweet with us and acted as friends and learnt many spiritual secrets and intricate spiritual philosophy, but when they saw we were facing some problem they suddenly turned against us. People with such natures are called artificial spiritualists and are condemned by the Vedic scriptures. The scriptures state that real friends come to aid at the time of difficulty. As it is stated in the Garuda Purana:
apat-kate tu samprapte yan-mitram mitram eva tat
brddhi-kale tu samprapte amitro’pi suhrda bhavet
“At the time of facing problems, any friend who remains a friend and comes to the aid of that friend is a real friend. But those who become friends and act as friends only during good times are not real friends because at good times even an enemy begins acting as a friend.”
Just around the time when our godbrothers began giving us problems, we went to see our father in Vrindaban, asking him what will happen to us in the future. As he was a perfect devotee and a realized astrologer as well, he replied, “Don’t worry, you will shine like the sun and there will only be one sun in the sky. Your Guru made only one true disciple who will carry his spiritual legacy further. Your facing problems right now is just to make you become spiritually disciplined and strong for the future. The disciplic succession of your Guru will stay with you. There will always be some people who will desperately act to destroy you, but at that time there will also be some people who will come to your aid and protect you. God will always be on your side, don’t worry.” We have first hand experience that many of his statements have come true.
For example, one time in the early eighties His Holiness Bhakti Charu Swami and Sarvabhavana Das had surprisingly fed us alone and sumptuously, along with sweet rasagullas in their apartment in Calcutta, India. A few hours after eating, we felt like knives were moving around inside our stomach. We were in Calcutta to catch our flight to California. In that condition we reached Berkley, California where we were admitted in the hospital. When we were in the hospital, even after many months and after many tests, the doctors could not find anything wrong in our body.
Seeing our situation, the GBC Guru of the Berkley temple at that time, His Holiness Hansaduta Swami, sent us to the Manila temple in the Philippines where Chakravarti das and his wife (Dinasarana dd) were living. We were very sick. Chakravarti and his wife took us to doctor Baskara and secretly told him to put us to sleep forever. Doctor Baskara, while injecting the lethal drug in us, told us to think about beautiful ocean waves and nice dancing girls on the beach, etc. Chakravarti das and his wife were both present next to our hospital bed in doctor Baskara’s hospital in Manila and were chanting the Hare Krsna Mahamantra loudly. We cannot remember what happened next. But Hansaduta Swami, a GBC leader and Guru for ISKCON, was in California and he phoned His Holiness Svarupa Damodara Swami, another GBC Guru for ISKCON, and told him that Krsna Balaram Swami was dead. Later, when His Holiness Svarupa Damodar Swami met us in Calcutta, India, he was shocked upon seeing that we were alive. He said, “Hansaduta told me that you were dead.”
Lord Krsna had other plans for us, that is why we survived this incident. The statement rakhe hari mare ke, “If Lord Krsna wants to protect someone, then who is there in this world that can kill that person?” is exactly true in our personal experience. Lord Krsna wanted us to work for Him and help in His mission, which is why He kept us alive. Later, we reached Vrindaban where, in due course of time, by consuming Ayurvedic medicines, we were cured. Our whole bodily color was like a yellow squash or the color of yellow lemon for several months. A person from Holland, who was not even a devotee at all, came to our aid in Manila and brought us there to Vrindaban, helping us in every way. This was our firsthand experience that when somebody wants to destroy us, there will always be somebody who wants to protect us.
Once, we were staying in a cabin in the forest of West Virginia, getting ready to publish our Vaisnava Kantha Hara book. One of our Caucasian godbrothers, Sriman Dharma das, was our secretary. Mr. Michael Richardson (now Mukunda das), had just joined us to become a devotee. Suddenly we heard guns shooting towards us. Dharma das became so frightened that he was shaking like a leaf on a tree in the wind. We prayed to Lord Krsna and suddenly Lord Nrsimhadeva came upon Michael Richardson and he ran towards those people who were shooting guns at our cabin, shouting at the top of his lungs, “You want to shoot a Vrajavasi Brahmana Sanyasi?!! You have to shoot me first, then you can shoot him!! You have to kill me first!!” Saying these words, he ran towards them and stopped them from shooting at us. He found out from them that an ISKCON GBC leader, Sriman Rupanuga Prabhu, told them to do this. Later, when we met Rupanuga in their Washington temple, we asked him the reason for him having them shoot guns at us. He replied that he wanted us to be scared and run from there. We told him we did not do anything against him in this life, why did he have to do this? He could not answer this question. Then we told him that this enmity must be from our past life. Hearing this, he put his head down and kept quiet. Devotees should not do such obnoxious deeds as Sriman Rupanuga Prabhu, or those who carried out his orders, did with us. Creating turmoil against another devotee is condemned by Lord Krsna in the twelfth chapter of the Bhagavad Gita. Now, Michael Richardson is spiritually initiated and, no matter what, he will never leave us in his entire life.
What we have mentioned in this “My Mission” is just the tip of the iceberg. There are so many similar misbehaviors of ISKCON leaders that we cannot mention them all here. This shows how much envy they carry in their heart for a devotee whom they know is better than them. In our heart, we do not feel like this. Even after experiencing such undesirable treatment from them, we think, ‘they do not know better.’ May the Supreme Lord forgive them. We never think that they are our enemies. We never thought maliciously towards them. Nevertheless, to straighten a bent rod, hammering is required, therefore our statements may seem harsh, but they are just meant to straighten the rod-like people who are bent in the wrong direction by going astray from the spiritual path. Uncle Marich told Ravana, “If a Guru becomes scared of correcting the wrongs of others, he is allowing them to swiftly march to hell.” That is why Lord Krsna used the first word in the Sixteenth Chapter of the Bhagavad Gita, “abhayam”, meaning fearlessness is the quality of a real devotee, who is not afraid of correcting someone, in whatever way it takes, whom he thinks should go to the spiritual world.
One of the main qualities of a real devotee is to forgive and forget the past and carry on with devotional service. Even though we experienced such obnoxious treatment from ISKCON people, we still desire to help them to improve spiritually. Regardless of the scriptural statement, ‘a devotee may forgive one for committed offenses, but Lord Krsna does not,’ I pray for those who knowingly or unknowingly did damage to us that Lord Krsna may forgive them, thinking that Lord Krsna listens to His real devotee’s prayers.
At present, ISKCON has gone astray from the spiritual path. Those who live in ISKCON, those who follow ISKCON, and those who live outside of ISKCON but have an ISKCON style mentality, need to make changes in their spiritual path or else their time spent in the name of spiritual life will have been wasted. At present, ISKCON has gone totally wrong spiritually, including the rtvik section of ISKCON, which we have discussed in one of our previous My Missions. Neither the Gurus nor the disciples of ISKCON can prove that they can go back to Godhead, but we can prove with scriptural evidence that their degradation is certain after their death. So why waste time in the name of spiritual life under such degrading people? ISKCON leaders are determined to remain as they are but those who claim to be smart, sincere, and seriously desire to go back to Godhead should carefully consider changing and take the required necessary steps to obtain liberation from material existence. We are always open to extend our help to the sincere.
Quoted in original from: http://archived.krsna.org/MyMission
BHAKTI CHARU SWAMI IS NOW ANSWERING TO THIS.
Update by Krishna Balaram Swami
Haribol dear devotees and friends,
Today, Thursday July 16th, 2020, Ekadasi, I came to know that my godbrother Bhakti Charu Swami passed away, afflicted with the Coronavirus. Where everybody has to answer for their mistakes, this devotee (Bhakti Charu Swami) is there now answering as to why my Guru Maharaj was poisoned when He was under his personal care. He is also answering as to why he sided against the desire of my Guru Maharaj Srila Prabhupada in his final days when He had asked and insisted to go on Govardhana Parikrama (circumambulation). He is now answering why he sided against Srila Prabhupada’s will. Whatever mistakes we do we have to answer to them, if not here in this world, at least after death, we must answer.
Srila Prabhupada wanted to go do Govardhan Parikrama, but Bhavananda, Jayapataka, Tamal Krsna, Bhakti Charu, and many so-called big devotees all sided against Srila Prabhupada’s last will; while Hansadutta, Chitsukhananda, myself, and some other devotees stood to fulfill Srila Prabhupada’s last will. We all wanted Srila Prabhupada to go to Govardhana and do Parikrama. Srila Prabhupada wanted to go on a bullock cart, not by walking, to do Govardhan Parikrama.
To whomever Bhakti Charu is facing right now, he is also answering as to why he and Sarva Bhavana das poisoned me by feeding me rasagulas (sweet balls) in his room in his apartment in Kolkata. He is surely answering to this as well. He is now answering as to why, after I had collected money for him and brought him out the debt he had, that he together with Sarva Bhavana, fed me rasagula sweet balls alone in their room while talking very nicely so I would not distrust them. I got very sick on that same day, and the next day managed to fly to America and was then in hospitals for six months.
In those days I was working along with Hansadutta in his zone. So when Hansadutta saw me suffering in the hospitals with so much pain and problems and saw how my body had turned into a pale yellow color like a lemon, he decided to send me to the Philippines. Hansadutta then secretly instructed Chakravarti das (a german devotee) and his wife Dinasharanara Dasi, to put me to sleep permanently. The Philippines was Hansadutta’s zone at that time, where Chakravarti and his wife Dinasharana were staying. They are still alive, I believe.
So Chakravarti and Dinasharana took me to a hospital managed by Dr. Baskara, who injected something into my body. I remember how Chakravarti and Dina Sharana were chanting very loudly into my ears as this was happening, and I went unconscious soon after this. When this happened they immediately informed Hansadutta (who was in the USA), who then told Bhakti Swarupa Damodar that Krsna Balaram Swami was now dead. But after some time, I woke up, because by Krsna’s grace, that injection did not work and I survived.
Bhakti Charu is surely answering to all of this now. He is answering why Srila Prabhupada was poisoned when he was taking personal care of Him, and he is also answering why he poisoned a devotee, his godbrother.
We should be careful while doing devotional service, and serve Lord Krsna. A devotee is always careful, always careful, always careful.
Gaura Hari! Jay Sri Radhe!
Servant of the devotees,
Krsna Balaram Swami
ON LEAVING THE IRREVERSIBLE ISKCON
Not only do those who accept worship from others without authorization fall into hell, but those who knowingly support such pretenders also get punished. As it is stated in the Kausika Samhita:
danam grhnati yah
sudro mahatyam api capadi
yasca tasmai sampradadyat
tav ubhau narakau dhruvam
“If Sudras (low class people), even if they have become spiritualists, accept charity, even in difficult times, they surely glide down to hell, and those who donate to them accompany them there.”
Because such deceitful situations commonly occur in Kaliyuga, no one can be peaceful in this world. Those who are innocent and seeking peace will be misled by the hypocrites. Saintly people feel compassion at this situation, as did Yudhisthira Maharaja five thousand years ago. Even though Kaliyuga’s influence was not in full bloom because of the boon given by Kali to Yudhisthira, even its minimal influence caused Yudhisthira Maharaja to feel saddened. Srila Suta Goswami spoke to the sages of Naimisaranya forest thus:
yudhisthiras tat pari-sarpanam budhah
pure ca rastre ca grhe tathatmani
adharma-cakram gamanaya paryadhat
(Srimad Bhagavatam 1.15.37)
“Yudhisthira Maharaja saw that the influence of Kaliyuga had pervaded his entire kingdom, infiltrating its cities, homes, and individual people. He noticed everyone leaning towards greed, lies, diplomacy, violence, envy, and irreligious principles. Therefore, he prepared himself to resign from royal life and departed from his kingdom to adopt the renounced order of life, dressed accordingly.”
In the Canakya Niti (3.10) it is stated, atmarthe prthivim tyaje, “It is proper to renounce the whole kingdom to save one’s self.” When I saw that an irreversible amount of Kaliyuga’s influence had overtaken the mission I had joined, I followed the same principle that Yudhisthira followed 5000 years ago. I left and established Bhagavat Dharma Samaj, adopting, as Yudhisthira had, the pure life of renunciation. Yudhisthira persevered until he saw Kaliyuga’s strong influence on his kingdom. Similarly, we carried on until its effect was intolerable. [Srimad Bhagavatam, My Mission, KBS0041]
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